He was in class finally! And he joined our little group and we all talked. Oh my gosh, I missed his accent so much and forgot how adorable he is. After class we went off on our own to go hang out and walk together and talk…
but he had to go take a smoke in the smoking area. I didn’t think about that. I know there are a ton of reasons people enjoy smoking and that it isn’t as bad as people say… but I hate it. It is awful. It smells disgusting. And weed is just stupid. I hate stuff that screws with peoples brains or whatever. And he’s definitely had quite the rebellious life too. Soo… I don’t know if I’d actually date him if I had the chance…
Good news though is that he’s here for the summer! And I absolutely love talking to the guy. He’s so funny and friendly and I can open up to him easily. He asked me to a play on Thursday and I’m thinking about going with him. I’m not sure… If so, maybe we could hang out beforehand in Seattle. :) I definitely want to be friends with the guy… even if he smokes.
Mission Talk and Become Friends: Success.
Hopefully tomorrow he will be in class! And you know what? I got this. I. Freaking. Got. This. What do I have to do? Say hi? I can say hi to a ton of other people and talk to strangers with ease. I can easily say hi and talk to him. There’s so much I want to know! All I have to do is wave him over and I’m sure he’ll sit by me. Act casual.
I did embarass myself last week, but the day after he did come up to say bye with a smile on his face. That has to mean something, even if it’s just as friends. He acknowledges me. And not just… oh hey, slight wave. It was a full out goofy exaggerated lean over and wave with a big smile and then quickly keep going and looking back still a bit. :D So it’s not like I’d be weird by talking to him. He’s a nice person.
For once, I’m going to actually have courage and confidence. Not just to hopefully get him, but to help myself as well. I do have a chance with him. I’m smart, I’m not hideous, and I can make him laugh and talk. I have my dorky, socially awkward charm. :D Who cares if I’m from a ghetto American small town and he’s from Malaysia? This is the 21st century! He wouldn’t go to America if he hated Americans. :) All I need is a good positive attitude, and I’m sure I’ll be fine.
And if he isn’t interested, oh well. I’d be sad, but he’d still be a good friend. :) He’s just so darn cute.
Short Term Goal: Sit by him and talk to him.
Long Term Goal: At least stay in contact over the summer so I can hang out with him in the fall.
I really don’t understand… it’s not like I’m pretty or cutesy or anything haha.
