Why did I think a meeting and four classes from 930 to 830 with only a two hour break on a Monday would be an okay idea?

Next goal if Viet Nam works well this summer: go on my own week to two week trip around Southeast Asia or maybe a bit more of Asia if I can. Since my grandma is helping out with college now (THANK YOU) I can save money for travel! Of course, I’m still aiming for scholarships to pay as much as I can. I mean, I paid for two years so far.

Anyway, the plan. Since I am only able to go to Viet Nam this summer because the business visa is too much of a burden to play around with, I’m going to visit other countries next year. I’m hoping for Thailand, Cambodia, and Singapore for some brief visits and maaaybe Indonesia, but then I am hoping to spend most of my time in Malaysia. :) I got friends willing to help me in all these countries so I don’t need to worry too much. Malaysia I have friends from every major part and they all want me to stay with them, show me around, and give me food. Tickets and visas should be the main issue. It’ll be nice since some of them are graduating this year (Han) and I’m going to miss them like crazy.

So yeah… it’ll be cool. :) Hopefully my family will be cool with it.

Not wanting to read my homework… aaaah

Do you ever find yourself doing all those little tricks to make wishes? Blowing out birthday candles, throwing change in a fountain, keeping good fortunes from fortune cookies, finding a shooting star, 11:11, praying to a certain deity.

I do it all the time, hoping and believing it’ll all get better. Normally my luck gets worse right after I do it, but something inside me tells me to keep it up. 

My wish? It changes a little bit over time. Lately, I’ve been wishing to be on campus more. To be able to spend time with my friends later. To have more freedom. To meet new people. To spend more time with my dear boyfriend and feel more like a girlfriend to him by going to his events. To succeed in school. 

Now that I look back, I realized some of these have already started to come true. I’ve met a few new people in my classes, not as many as I planned, but a lot of the people… don’t really click with me. I feel like I’m starting to connect more with my friends back home and I’m getting to know the Phi Delta Theta guys more. There’s so many nice guys in that frat that are so fun to talk to! They always make me feel at home when I’m there too. :) And school is definitely stressful this quarter, but I seem to be pulling out quite well. I spend hours upon hours on that stupid homework. Sometimes I don’t do as well as I wish I could have, but overall I think I’m getting it. 

And now I’m full out looking for scholarships and study abroad programs. Indonesia may have shut down for political issues, but that won’t stop me from going to Asia! I still have Singapore, Malaysia, and Japan to apply for! I’m definitely going to see the advisers too.

Okay okay, getting back to what I was originally saying. I think all of that wishing has finally paid off. I have to thank my sister for this. She’s been struggling in school and her grades have been dropping. Nobody is home to help her during the day because my parents work and I’m at school then my mom has to pick me up from the transit station. She finally had enough and complained and my dad said there’s a bus that I can take to his work and we can carpool home together. And then my mom can help my sister do her homework and fix up the whole because nobody else is.

What that means for me? I get to stay on campus later now. I can spend more hours straight on homework so I can focus. I can meet up with friends at better times for lunch. I can join clubs. Sometimes, I’ll leave early, but if I want to, I can stay for Kaness’s events. I can go to his dinners, his pumpking carving thing, anything. I can finally feel like his girlfriend and he doesn’t have to constantly tell his friends I’m not there because of the commuting and other problems. How is this even possible? Something has to go wrong. I’m so freaking happy, I’m on the brink of tears and all I want to do is see Kaness right now and give him the biggest hug. 

I wish I could just say SOMETHING about how I feel, but why bother now?

Now it’s going to be even harder to see Kaness and my friends. AWESOME.

• Econ Final: Hey I'm going to be about all the tiny details in lecture instead of what the professor has been emphasizing and how about I don't allow you to answer with the basic reasons? And hey, how about I throw in some ridiculously general, random questions you haven't seen before? Sucker.

I figured you were nervous, you kept fixing your hair and shifting your feet. Here’s some gum, trust me it helps the shaking. What are you doing over there? I’m trying to smoke downwind from you! One of the many downsides of hanging out with people who don’t smoke. I used to be the fat kid everyone made fun of. You know, you really suck at writing. Shut up! My teacher was awful and I blame her forever! You haven’t had teriyaki?!? Here, I’ll pay for you. You can’t use chopsticks? No, you don’t use them like that. You’re holding it too low. No, but your third finger there-you suck. See that Asian guy over there? He’s laughing at you on the inside. America would be sooo much better if you guys focused on making good food and actually ate it. Let me show you my frat and prove to you that not all frat guys are jerks, including me. Especially me. You really have no sense of direction, do you? Don’t you dare ever wear make up or get plastic surgery! Wow, you got your plans completely wrong. Well, this time you’ll be doing me a favor by hanging out with me, okay? And this is the best spot in the entire house, the deck. Just enjoy the wonderful view. The cemetery? Okay, ignore that side of the view. Look over heeeere. Wait, doesn’t the sun set in the east or the west? I think it’s this way in Malaysia… wouldn’t it be the same everywhere? I am so confused! You don’t swear? So you don’t say this? Or this? Or this? Or this? Or this? Or this? Or this? Whaaaat? Rant about Malaysian government. We need to go around Seattle and geocache around Washington like you said! Ugh, the rain here sucks. It’s so cold and small, so unlike Malaysian rain. Just look out here-okay, stop laughing. No, just listen! Oh my god! Okay, do you see the green? And that…whatever blue that is-Didn’t I say stop laughing? If it were raining, you wouldn’t be able to see this beautiful scenery! We’d be stuck inside miserable. Instead of saying a swear word I say fish. Oh my god, that’s awful. Say this in Spanish! Now say this! You actually know about Hindu scripture? Don’t worry about your nose, it’s perfect for your face. Just don’t change anything, okay?!? Do you remember anything I say? Okay, you have to remember the name of my frat. Just remember it like this (I already forgot haha). What happened to your feet? Haven’t you heard of socks? And sneakers? Why don’t you wear them? They’re soo much more comfortable and you can jump in them! You won’t ever make me go bra shopping for you randomly right? Okay, good. Whew. How do you carry that huge backpack? That’s so heavy and awful for you! You need to get rid of some stuff or carry two bags to even the weight. Ugh, women. No, don’t promise me you’ll take stuff out! You’ll just make an excuse for everything to be important. Don’t throw that filthy…tobacco at me! Well, I don’t have to now that you hit your head against the couch, stupid. I really like Skrillex a lot-okay, why are you laughing now? I think we can agree that I know everything. Of course I’m going to walk you to your dad’s car? I’m trying to be a gentleman here! Hey I’m not the bad*** here, that’s you. What? You admitted it! I did not! I can’t even swear! Weeellllll, you didn’t deny it when I said it. I give up, you win. Of course I do, I’m the smartest.

Overall, an amazing day. :) He would most likely be a bad person to date, but I can’t help but like him more and more. Just hanging out like this is enough though. Can’t wait for the play tomorrow!

Okay, maybe I could if I found out the guy I like likes me back… but I think I would explode into confetti if that happened. :D

I was able to find the courage in myself to talk to him! :) Aaand he’s from Malaysia, not India. I had a feeling about that. I was worried he would just think I am annoying, but that was not the case (unless he is good at hiding it). I was able to finally speak to him by asking about his tablet and that got us to talk about other stuff too. He’s actually a freshman like me surprisingly and pretty funny. And oh my gosh, he has the most adorable smile, it’s like the happiest thing I have ever seen. Mixed with his accent and his formal dress he wears sometimes for I don’t know what, it’s just… oh my gosh. I thought he’d be more serious, but he’s pretty laid back. And he knew I’m in his quiz section! Nooo regrets on finally being able to talk to him. Maybe we can hang out more :D being his friend is enough for me.

Okay, fangirling over.